When the Phone Doesn't Ring: Finding Comfort in Solitude

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"We live in a society that prides itself on needing and fulfilling a need, but we all forget that there are periods of time when the only need that manifests itself happens to be only a need for ourselves."

You draw the curtains for the night and let out a small yawn
Your feet shuffle you over to the bed, and you topple beneath the sheets
Sliding into the familiar position that sleep beholds
To finally rest your head, and turn your back on the world for the night

 

Sometimes, in all of our commotion and complexities of life, we are still often left with the unbearable mystery, angst, and silence of loneliness to keep us company.

 

In what feels like a couple hours time, you sense the warmth of the sun brushing the nape of your neck through the curtains, as if to rush your awakening, and, so you do.
You reach over the plush satin pillows beneath you to check your phone, no new messages. An eyebrow raises in curiosity, but you blame your cell phone provider’s poor reception for the lack of incoming communication(s).

Still, something within you questions this.

 

We blindly fall for the lie of thinking that just because our phone isn’t blaring every minute, that we are as insignificant as the stranger that eyes you queerly as you dine alone.

 

You wonder what happens when that familiar ring, that signals a text or call never comes. You sit at work, checking your phone wearily, still no new messages. 
Your head sinks into the palm of your hand while the other drags the greasy fork back and forth between your drenched spinach leaves, the stench of silence slicing your pride.

 

Have you ever thought for a minute, or longer, that some seasons are meant to be spent alone? Sometimes no one needs you, and while it’s uncomfortable and while it hurts, it’s important to know who you are without people. It’s easy to hide behind the vibration and tempos that come with a passing crowd. It’s easy to get lost in who people want you to be, but have you ever embraced the silence? The magnitude and weight of loneliness.

Have you ever taken yourself out to eat, enjoyed a movie alone, or just laid in bed, letting the stillness around you penetrate your heart, pores, and mind? Sometimes, having no one to roll over to in the morning, and no one to catch up with is beautiful, and in fact very normal. We live in a society that prides itself on needing and fulfilling a need, but we all forget that there are periods of time when the only need that manifests itself happens to be only a need for ourselves.

When the phone doesn’t ring, don’t be quick to fill the silence, instead wait it out. Inhale the surrounding stench sharply. Don’t exhale. Sit and try not to outrun those seemingly unbearable feelings. The universe has a way of telling us we need to slow down, and an even better way of telling us that we need to focus on ourselves for a while, so when you get that message, don’t pass it up.

When the phone doesn’t ring, enjoy it. Embrace it. Rock it.

 

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